Why Do I Diet?

I’m a yo-yo dieter.  I have struggled with my weight since I was a teenager.  I will work hard and lose a ton of weight.  I’ll look great, my health will improve, and I’ll be able to be more active.  Then I gain it back and more.  I’m betting this is frustrating to those in my life as sometimes I have a very restricted diet.  Sound familiar?  I think it is fair for me to say that many, many people have the same issue.  

Why do I keep trying then?  It’s not pure vanity like others may think.  Yes, I love the idea of looking good in a swimsuit but that’s not my goal.  In fact, I don’t desire to wear a bikini.  My husband thinks I’m sexy no matter my weight and in my mind, I look good.  I frequently diet so I can be healthy and active.   My extended family has an extensive history of diabetes.  I have seen first hand how diabetes can limit your life dramatically.  I don’t want that to be me.  

I struggle, though.  Our society tends to revolve around food and not healthy food!  It doesn’t help that healthy food is typically more expensive.  If I’m asked to bring a dish to an event, I can spend  $15 to bring a fruit salad or $2 to bring brownies.  I am actively trying to do better with this.  I have to remind myself that being unhealthy will cost me more in the long run. 

 It is also difficult to resist eating the unhealthy options that surround me.  I have difficulty just eating one piece of candy or one chip or one bowl of ice cream.  (Yes, one bowl of ice cream).  Sugar is addictive and one bite does me in.  I envy those that can eat a few bites, recognize that is enough, and stop.  I struggle to stop eating even when full.  Right now I’m doing better, but I have to look at it as an addiction.  We all need food but we don’t need all the food we eat!
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I want to comment on the recent stories I have seen floating around that show people taking pride in their large size.  I’m happy people love themselves and can be satisfied with their bodies regardless of their size.  I will caution, though, that we don’t get complacent.  We need to focus on being healthy, no matter the size!  

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